Move on!

When you do all you can, when you have exasperated yourself reaching out to those that are “family” and nothing good comes of it. What do you do???

Move on. People love you or they don’t. They want to be a part of your life, or they don’t. It isn’t hard to figure out. It is, however, so hard to understand.

When you have spent all of your life with your loved ones, enjoying holidays together, laughing and loving, how do you understand complete silence? Simple, you don’t.

Normal people don’t walk away from you. Normal people don’t turn their backs and walk away especially for a silly reason. Not all families have normal members.

Such is my life.

I have learned to adapt. I have moved on, the best I can. It isn’t easy. When you have gone through the loss of a parent, dad, and a nephew, Derek, life is never the same.

I could sing dad’s praises all day and night. He was by far the best dad. I think we all believe our dad’s rock the world. I know I felt that way, and I still do.

That aside, life changes in death. I know I have never been the same. How could I? But, I moved on. Dad would want me to. But now, I am without my mother and my siblings. I have been since July of 2015. I never thought that would happen. How do you turn your back on your sister and your daughter? Apparently, it is pretty easy.

But, as they say, life goes on. I say my prayers. I know how blessed I am. I have a husband, Jeff, that makes my life complete. He is truly the love of my life and I never forget that. We spend every moment we have together. Life is short, as Jeff and I are both aware. He lost his brother, Ken,  in February of 2015 and his nephew Kyle in December of 2011. I also lost a nephew, Derek, in 2006. Jeff and I talk about our lost loved ones, sharing memories of them. It used to make us cry, now we laugh at some of the memories. I laugh especially at all of dad’s sayings. He had so many of them! We laugh and cry at the same time, remembering all of them.

What will the future hold? We often talk about that. Who knows? I don’t worry about it. Life is what it is. I can’t change it. We both live one day at a time. If something were to happen to a family member of mine, I would be there in a shot. No matter how they feel about me, I still love them. I wouldn’t be anywhere else but with them if needed.

So, hold your loved ones near. Say your prayers. Never lose hope. God is always there.

Good night and God Bless.